Day-to-diabetes requires a lot of focus on timing:  what time did I take my insulin, what time did I eat, what time will I exercise, what time will I be in a meeting, what time am I planning to go to bed, what time will my insulin and my food seemingly serendipitously meet somewhere in my body, mapping out into my bloodstream … the list of things to be timed is on-going.

Pinch hitting for a misfiring pancreas is the embodiment of the White Rabbit.

The healthcare/medical device system adds a few new yards to this rabbit hole I’m tumbling down.  This past week, I had a G6 sensor fall off after only four days of wear, with only one sensor in house.  I had to wait five days until I could reorder, opening a weird timing window. Will I receive new sensors before the 10 days are up on this current one?  Nope, because there’s a backorder at Dexcom.

Should I open the last G5 transmitter and use my last box and a half of G5 sensors?  Mmmm, unsure because that would start the 90 day timer on that transmitter and then I’d be running out the clock on the last 3 weeks of my G6 transmitter and THIS SHIT COSTS $$$ and I value what I earn and what I spend on diabetes care and do not want to waste a stitch of these things.

I was away for the last few days and while I was gone, the replacement sensor for the G6 sensor that wept off my skin arrived.  10 more days of wear, starting tomorrow morning, still within the window of using my current transmitter.

But the clock continues to tick on to the next ordering deadline, the next scheduled payment, the next copay, the next quarterly insurance debit, the next open enrollment, the next held breath to make sure necessities are covered, the next time that diabetes makes me think more about my wallet than my pancreas.