My only resolution for 2016 was to write more. Not necessarily here on my website, but wherever the words seem to come most comfortably. I have a few fiction ideas I’m fleshing out here at home, but blogging has always served as a way to unknot some of the thoughts in my head, mostly centered around my disease. Once my disease angst is unknotted (with blogging being the mental equivalent of gently tapping a fork against a knotted necklace chain until it goes slack and gives up), my mind feels better about diverting thoughts to things that are More Fun.
The problem with blogging is that it’s a public forum. Which means that I sometimes write with readers, or perceptions, or assumed judgments in mind. Sharing while simultaneously panicking doesn’t make for good writing, and more importantly, it takes away from the whole therapeutic/fun aspect of blogging. SO. I’m trying to blog like no one’s reading. Which means there may be more fractured sentences. And shit that doesn’t make the most sense. And probably less-than-lovely language, but oh well.
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I’ve been making use of Dexcom Clarity over the last few weeks and while it’s humbling to see my blood sugar graphs plotted out in full color folios, but there is a certain power to logging and reviewing my blood sugars. (Huge sigh here because I make progress when I fastidiously review my blood sugars, which means I should continue to review my blood sugars, which I hate because is a tedious pain in the ass. That’s kind of a diabetes theme: tedious pain in the ass.)
Applications that actually DO SOMETHING USEFUL and don’t require extra work are my favorites, like the One Touch Reveal app that my Verio Sync uses and the Dexcom Clarity one. Checking my blood sugar is mildly painful; reviewing data compilations should not be.
My numbers are improving, and with them, my mood.
This A1C is not entirely accurate (as it changes every few days when I review the PDF downloaded from Dexcom Clarity), but it’s very close to where my lab work pinned me, so I’ll fucking take it.
Also bringing much joy this week? These Tweets:
I smiled that the American Girl doll diabetes kit includes a blood gluce meter that reads "104." That's always what my meter says 😉
— Kelly / Diabetes (@KellyRawlings) January 6, 2016
Hello Itsa me pic.twitter.com/9oH0048gcl
— Elliott Zelenak (@ElliottZelenak) December 26, 2015
— Dana | #hcsm #DIYPS (@danamlewis) January 7, 2016
Folks, HUGE difference b/t foods that do not significantly raise BG and foods that "lower" BG. One has an answer. One is a unicorn. #myEHCS
— Melissa Lee, PWD (@sweetlyvoiced) December 11, 2015
So this is what those symbols on my dash mean …. pic.twitter.com/WihnazLe9k
— Toni Turner (@ArtDecoBiz) January 6, 2016
Unrelated to anything: I found this sleeve smiling at me the other day:
And now it’s smiling at you.