The low alarm goes off and my arm snakes out from underneath the covers in slow motion, a serpent in search of snacks.
The jar of glucose tabs sits on my bedside table, most often collecting dust but on this night, it’s an essential item. I flip open the lid and count out four tabs, piling them on the side of the bed and chomping down one of them while I lean on one arm.
Chomp, chomp, chomp.
Seems like I’m peckish instead of panicked. But the room is spinning a little and my peripheral vision comes and goes while the low blood sugar laps at the edge of my ability to reason. What time is it? Are the kids still asleep? Siah is a fat lump at the end of the bed, one eye open and staring at me while I cram another tab into my mouth. I’m confused about the day and time but I know exactly how to put the glucose tabs into a precisely stacked pile and slowly work my way through them, hoping they work quickly. My husband is asleep, unaware that anything out of the ordinary is happening.
Chomp, chomp, chomp at 3 am after the blaring of my Dexcom alarm, the jar of tabs literal lifesavers on the bedside table.