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Eight Years Of Blogging.

Eight!  Ah, ah, ah!!!!The day-to-day physicality of diabetes isn't what gets me down.  I can test my blood sugar without wincing, or change my infusion set without minding the pinch.  A new Dexcom sensor stings for a second, but then just blends into the background. 

It's the day-to-day head game of diabetes that messes with me.  It's doing everything "right" and still having an unexplainable high blood sugar.  It's doing everything "wrong" and ending up at a mysterious 112 mg/dL.  It's worrying about complications that haven't yet come to pass.  It's gracefully dealing with the ones that have.  It's preparing for the worst and hoping for the best.  It's the complicated relationship with food, numbers, hardware … and with mortality.  Having my emotional health intact is what best equips me to handle the physical demands, in all their chaotic capacities.

I didn't realize how alone I felt until I was so far from Clara Barton Camp that I was too old to be a Couselor-in-Training.  It wasn't until I realized the only other diabetics I knew were ones I sat next to in the Joslin waiting room, and I always wanted to lean over and say hi but I was too nervous they'd think I was weird.  (They might be right, but that's neither here nor there.)  Despite the support of my family, and my friends, there was still an ache to find other people who didn't need diabetes explained to them, but who just understood without effort or bias. 

Diabetes doesn't define me, but it does explain so much of me.  It explains the scattered pile of used test strips I leave in my wake.  It explains the subject matter of the stories I chose to publicly share.  It explains why my daughter knows that Spiderman fruit snacks are sometimes a "treat" and sometimes "medicine."  And it explains why the Internet, for all of its cruelty and callousness in other arenas, remains a place where people can come together with their diabetes trouble and triumphs and find community, solace, and someone who will give them the "Me, too" they are in search of.  The Internet hasn't saved my life, but it has made it better, and I'm forever grateful to be a part of a community that, for all its diversity, remains strong at the core of its "sames."

"What's a blog?"  I asked Chris, back in 2005.

"It's like an online diary.  Only everyone else can read it.  You might be able to find other people who have diabetes?"

And just the promise of maybe finding others was enough to start me down the path of sharing my story.  Eight years ago this past weekend, I started blogging, and for me, sharing these stories has made a world of positive difference in my diabetes health, and in my emotional health.  I don't feel alone.  I am proud of, and inspired by, what this community has transformed into over the course of the last eight years, and I'm prouder still to call so many of you friends. 

I didn't expect to find others.  I hoped to.  I didn't expect to find friends.  But I did.  And I had no idea how my health would be impacted - in such a positive way, by strangers from on the Internet simply saying, "I understand."  But it was, and continues to be.

Thank you guys for letting me share my stories for eight years.  I remain forever grateful.

Comments

Hi Kerri,
I have been an avid reader from the begining. You have be an insperation to me and all the other people that read your blog. It helps us understand and cop with the way we feel. When you think you are doing great testing when your suppose to and eating the right foods, Your endo just blows you out of the water and said your A1C isnt good. We all get frustrated but we do have a place to vent and help each other.
Thank You Kerri for all these years of Help, laughs and and a great blog. Keep up the good work, My Hat is off to you.
Larry

Thank you, Kerri, for sharing your real life stories, your ups and downs, your experiences. You have given me a different perspective about my own diabetes and I first found your blog when I was thinking about getting pregnant. I'm now expecting my first baby and so far my pregnancy has been healthy and happy! And my push to get a CGM was in part from reading all about it on your blog. So thank you!

Respect.

I mean, thanks for being part of the community.

Beautifully said Kerri! A sense of community is so important for PWD and you have helped so many by starting your blog and continuing to share your warmth, humor, and insight.

You have once again perfectly summarized the everyday rigors of living with diabetes. Thanks for blogging so that we (who need the encouragement you provide) have found you! Keep up the great work. I can only hope my blog provides a fraction of the support that you do. Thanks Kerry.

God bless you, Kerri. Your ramblings, sharings, and knowledge make our lives more tolerable and hopeful. Thanks for all you do for us, the family with a 10-year old T1 that you don't know, but who feel some comfort in knowing their future will still be full.

Hi Kerri,
I've been reading your blog for quite some time and you have inspired me, comforted me, taught me, and made me feel not so alone.. I'm a 24 years old T1 (since 2007) and I can relate to/understand absolutely everything you write and often I find myself laughing and crying because your posts bring out so many feelings that is locked up inside. The feeling I get when I really do understand what you, and other commentors here, write about is a really good one. Because of you I learned there was such a thing as a CGM, and I got one in October 2012 and I'm still wearing it. It is your best friend sometimes, but it can also be your worst enemy. Those falling arrows when you really don't want them to be there- like when exercising- or the vibration/beeeping waking you up at night because you're too high/low and work calls at 6:30am... Well, I am so grateful that I came across your blog, and I will keep on reading it forever :) I'm soon hoping to try and get pregnant, and I've read your posts on pregnancy and again- you make me feel like I can do anything! Your experiences are like "medicine" for my psyke, they help me continue to be the duracell bunny I've always been though having T1.

Thank you for sharing so much of you :)

You were one of the first blogs I started reading on a regular basis and now I look every day for my "Kerri" fix. Thank you for sharing and being a normal person, who just happens to have diabetes! (a normal but amazingly awesome pwd!)

Kerri! Thanks for blogging for 8 years!! I found you early on, after my daughter was diagnosed at 13. You have offered cheer and inspiration and company along this journey. We are grateful for you, and filled with admiration for you and your family!
v

Your blog has made a big difference in the way I view my diabetes, and has certainly helped me cope with it. You are a big inspiration whether you know it or not.

Thank you for blogging, Kerri! I found your blog when I desperatly needed to know that a healthy pregnancy was attainable with diabetes. Reading your stories was very reassuring. That's what led me to you but I've kept coming back day after day because your posts are so relatable and funny. I'm not a huge part of the DoC but connecting to you via your blog is always such a boost to my strength and confidence when I need it and inspiration to keep moving forward and fighting the good fight. Thank you for all you do for the diabetes community!

Kerri,
you have brought me joy, sorrow, concern, understanding, laughter......on and on
You actually get "me" which not an easy task for most "normal" people.
I haven't been reading since the beginning of SUM, but since I have found this site you are as much a part of my life as my morning coffee.
thank you for being You.
p.s. is this like a "dear John" letter,?????

Thank you for starting this blog. Yours was the first I found when my son was diagnosed in Dec 2011 at 4 years old. Your posts have made me laugh and cry and really do inspire me. As the support person I understand diabetes from the "outside"... you make us support people see what it's like on the inside. Thanks for sharing :)

I've been following your blog for over two years now (since my husband was diagnosed with T1) and it has really helped me understand that some of the situations he deals with is normal. It has also given me some great insight as to what its like to be a PWD as he doesn't always want to talk about how he "feels." So thank you!

I feel so lucky to have found your blog just recently. I am on my 20/20 year. 20 years with diabetes, 20 without. It helps to read your posts and laugh/cry. Today's post especially hit home. I sometimes feel so alone. I don't know many others with diabetes, so thank you for blogging. I started a blog a few years back. Only posted a few entries & you have inspired me to get back at it.
Thanks-
Susan

As I have said before, you are a constant source of inspiration for me. It's not always about #bgnow; there is a value you bring to the table being type 1, married with children that gives many of us multiple levels of connection with you. Keep it up, we need you!

Thank you for sharing your life with diabetes. I don't have diabetes, but my 14 year old son, Victor, was diagnosed a year ago with T1.

I've just found your blog and it has been such an inspiration and fun to read your blog :-)

Greetings all the way from Denmark :-)

Kerri - Thank you for the past eight years of heart-felt, educational, encouraging, and occasionally silly posts that have made you the girl-next-door for all of us with diabetes.

Hi Kerri,
You are welcome.

Dan

About a year ago, a Dexcom representative told me about your blog as I started my own journey of being a T1D. What a connection, inspiration and Godsend you have been. Your stories remind me of my own, the ones of motherhood and the ones of dex screaming at me in the night, and all the ones in between. It's a wonderful life we all live with ups and downs, highs and lows,and with the help of each other, we're making it. One of my favorite blogs was the Terms of Endearment. So many new terms to experience and laugh about!

Kerri, congratulations on 8 (eight!) fantastic years. I think we all learn something from you each day. And you are one of the funniest people I've ever encountered. Hope you celebrate.

From April 10, 2007
This was the first comment I got on my d-blog.
Thanks for all your words, and blogs, and smiles, and vlogs :), and your determination!

Kerri. says:
April 10, 2007 at 8:49 pm

Hi there – I saw that someone had come over to my blog via yours. Nice to “meet” you! I write a diabetes blog called “Six Until Me.” I noticed you have it linked from your sidebar – thanks for that. Welcome to the blogosphere! I’d like to add you to my links, if that’s okay with you.I think your office celebrated your birthday perfectly. I have loved sugar-free Jell-O since I was a little kid. Good luck with your blog and I’ll be back to check out your new posts.– Kerri.

Congrats on 8 years of blogging and a million thanks for sharing your journey with the rest of us! Your blog was the first diabetes specific blog I found on the DOC and I am truly thankful!!

I was diagnosed with Type II 7 years ago. I found your blog shortly after and have been an avid reader ever since. Although I'm not using insulin yet I have certainly gained an insight and education into insulin injections, using insulin pumps and CGMs that comes from reading your blog. Thank you for open this little part of you life to us.

Call me silly, but I have tears rolling down my face. Happy Blogaversary!!! And thank you from the bottom of my mostly over-emotional heart for being the gateway to more wonderful things than I can mention. The best of all being friends & acceptance. Without your blog (and CSparl's idea that you should blog), I might never have found so many wonderful people that don't just get diabetes, but they get me. Without all of you, I might not have had the courage to make a major change in my diabetes management. A change that has enabled me & my doctors to focus on more urgent health issues because my diabetes "behaves" more than it did before.

Most of all, I'm proud to "know" you. Not just because of all the good you do for our community, but also because of what a great person you are.

So, thank you. Although the words seem inadequate when written, please know that they are heartfelt & contain so many emotions that they overflow into tears. But really good tears, I promise. :)

Thank you for being such an instrumental part of the community & for being such an influencial voice for us. And just for being awesome :)

Thank you! As a mom of a newly diagnosed 9 year old your blogs give us much hope, much insight, and some darn good laughs about this journey with type 1. Our favorite blog so far is the Star Wars, "I'm not the droid your looking for!" And when we both have a day that sucks with diabetes and drains us both your blogs hit just the right emotions of how my son feels. Thank you for blogging, even for the ones who love all the type 1's out there! Please don't stop:-)

Beautifully written...

Kerri,
Thank You for blogging! You were the first blog I found when my 4 year old was diagnosed, your words have so helped ease my mind and help us not to feel so alone in this!

Amen and amen and a-freaking-men about the daily head trip that is T1D. Happy to have found your blog.

Kerri, Congrats on EIGHT year of blogging and getting your story out there. I hadn't found your blog until the last year or so, but always look forward to and enjoy reading your posts. Your was one of the first blogs I found when I first entered into the vast DOC. I find comfort in your blog and it is partly to you that I made the decision to start using a CGM and as of tonight, I am now wearing my first sensor for my new Dexcom that I got just today. Keep on doing what you do. Because by doing so you encourage, inspire, educate, make us laugh, cry and most of all not feel so alone in the daily adventure that is diabetes.

Congrats, friend! I've enjoyed you sharing your journey and occasionally hitching a ride on it myself. I hope you continue doing this until you're tired of it or until we come up with something better. Like blogs in pill form. Or blog pumps. Your call.

Daughter was diagnosed day after her second birthday three and a half years ago. Six Until Me has given me a real window into life as a grown-up diabetic, which has enabled me us to live with T1 so much better. Thanks for it, Kerri!

Happy 8 years! Today my blog is 2 years old. Apparently it's a big blogiversary day in the DOC, lol. Your blog is one of the first D blogs I ever found, and I'm glad I did. Your blog helped open my eyes to the fact that there was a whole world of PWD online that I could talk with and relate to.

You keep me sane. You make me laugh. And cry! Thanks so much for sharing! The world is a better place because of you.

My 19-year-old son was diagnosed with Type 1 six years ago. I forget now how I found your blog, but I have enjoyed reading it. I admit I don't read every post, but there have been some really good ones that I have forwarded on to my son. (I have hopes that he will start reading your blog on his own.) Some of what you write about has helped me to better understand what my son has to go through. I read with great interest about the Dexcom so when the doctor suggested he get one to get a tighter control on his numbers, I totally jumped on board with the idea. He is so thankful to have the CGM now, and says it has really helped him. Anyway, I love your writing style and your blog. Keep up the good work!

Someone in Romania has been reading you all these years. Thank you and please don't ever stop.

Happy Anniversary! Thank you for touching our lives Kerri with your caring, insightful humor.

I'm so glad you started blogging 8 years ago and that I found your blog (was it maybe 6 years ago?). Thank you for all of the inspiration you give to us, and for being such a wonderful friend!!

Everyone has said it so well but I can't sit by and not chime in. You have been a life line to this world of diabetes for almost 7 years now and have given me so much understanding that my daughter (once 7 now 14) could not. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for being the voice we have needed to hear. You give us laughter and tears but most of all hope! xoxo

I love you guys. For real.

Congrats, Ms. Kerri, on eight years of keeping it real. I remember the first time I read your blog and thought, "I could totally be friends with this girl", and now we're actually friends. This internet is pretty powerful stuff. Also, as an aside, I used to hate the word 'blog', even when I started one. I've grown accustomed to it since. :)

Late to the party, but straight from the heart - Thanks for 8 years of fantasticalness!
Xoxo
Kelly K

Thank you so much for your blog. It has been such a wonderful resource...especially throughout my pregnancy!

grateful for your blog.

Kerri, you have changed my world for the better in so many ways. I'm so happy that this crazy internet has brought you and your beautiful family into my life.

Thank you for being SO BRAVE and telling your story (in such an elegant, fun, and moving way).

I can't wait to see what the next years bring!

Kerri your blog was one of the first that I found after my T1 diagnosis in 2010. I felt alone and I remember reading your blog and finding encouragement and hope that things would get better. Happy bloggy anniversary!

From Christel I found you, and from you I found Scott.

So there.

:) thank you for keeping this space real, honest, and uniquely you. I appreciate that more than you know.

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