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From Abby: My Silly Schedule.

Abby is working 9-5 now, (What a way to make a livin'!) (Actually, she's working 8 - 4:30.)  (Is it weird to have three sets of parenthesis in a row?) and her schedule is throwing diabetes management out of whack.  Here's a little glimpse into her "silly schedule."

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Juggling EVERYTHING!!!Whenever I go through a significant change in schedule, my silly blood sugars don't let me forget it. (I'm sure I'm not the only one.)  For the past few months I've been on a schedule that varied from day to day. I got up whenever I wanted, babysat either all day or all evening some days, or would have the occasional appointment here and there. I guess I just didn't have a "set schedule," but my body got used to that.

Now that I'm living this silly grown up life of an 8-4:30 job, I have to readjust everything all over again. This is fine, and I can do it. Lots of testing an Dexcom wearing and pattern searching. Do-able. Except that while it's happening, I'm also supposed to be learning everything there is to know about my new career, while I've been on the ultimate blood sugar roller coaster.

I know that I can fix this. I've done it before, and I have the tools and the knowledge. I have the support from my co-workers and my friends, and especially from the DOC. I just really wish I didn't have to. I wish I could've sat through the past week of lectures and training sessions, could have met those 30 new people with a stable sugar that enabled me to remember their names.

What really gets me is that I tried so hard all week. I can't even blame these roller coasters on burnout, because I was testing at least six times a day, and wore my Dex the entire time. I counted my carbs, and ate what I thought were safe foods. Sometimes no matter what you do and how hard you work, diabetes wins.

Next week will be better. I know what to expect, I can have snacks on my desk, everyone in my office knows I have type 1 (and they all are RN's in an endocrinology office, so that helps a little), and I know what worked and didn't last week. So it will be better, it has to be better ... I think.

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I rely heavily on the Dexcom to help me attempt to identify patterns when my schedule changes, but like Abby's previous lifestyle, my schedule is up in the air, all the time.  For me, a little structure goes a looooong way in keeping things under better control.  How do you change your diabetes to accommodate a changing schedule?


Which is why it is so hard to keep my T1 ten year old, hockey, lacrosse, soccer, gym class, art, ...oh you get it....so difficult to keep stable. Thankful for A1C's less than 7.5 despite all the craziness in her schedule and thankful to you all for making me feel alright with her A1C not being perfect. Thanks for being honest and being here...it helps so much.

Sometimes no matter what you do and how hard you work, diabetes wins....Amen sister.

It's great that you're doing it Abby and you will have it figured out in no time, before something changes again :-)! I sometimes avoid doing things so I don't have to change my insulin. Crazy huh? I can totally relate to how you feel about wanting just a regular day. It would be nice to have a normal pancreas and not have to think about making adjustments all the time!

I'd like to say "it get's better" but we all know that's wishful thinking. You can only do the best you can do and thankfully, you're now surrounded by individuals who have an understanding of what you're dealing with. Life never stays still, even with "regular schedules". You'll make a wonderful CDE! Hang in there!

Sorry you had a rough week but to be honest, as I read this, all I could think of is how you're going to be a great nurse for your patients. They'll know that you really do understand when they're having a tough time.

This is how I've been feeling for the last 6 days. It's SO nice that there are people "out there" that get it, that get how frustrating it is, that get how I have times where I feel like I'm rockin' my diabetes and times where no matter how hard I seem to work it's rockin/sockin' me. I hear ya sista'! I know it must get better maybe this weekend? maybe next week? but for the past 6 days it seems so out of my control. Wouldn't it be nice to say "well, at least I got to enjoy a chocolate shake with/because of that number". This week in reality all I've really had was a salad (and still high numbers) ugh.
Anyway, I'm SUPER happy about two things...you (and birdie) aren't sick anymore, and you got to enjoy your birthday (Happy Happy Belated Birthday to you!).
Big hugs and smiles...

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