After a hellish A1C and a little bit of emotional purging yesterday (thank you guys so much for all of your support and encouragement), I need to take my small victories, diabetes and otherwise, into account. So here we go:
- Since having my A1C drawn, I have been significantly more attentive about testing my blood sugar. For the last three weeks, I've been making myself STOP what I'm doing, even if it seems SO IMPORTANT and slowing down for the 30 seconds it takes to test my blood sugar. During the course of any given day, I'm all over the place, schedule-wise, so it sort of feels good to force myself to breath and pay diabetes a smidge of attention.
- In conjunction with testing, I'm also making a conscious effort to react to the numbers, even if I feel distracted. If I'm over 140 mg/dL, I'm correcting that number and using the bolus calculator on my pump. If I'm low, I'm rejecting the desire to tidy up and instead I'll hit the grape juice bottle for a quick swig. Small victories.
- I bought pants that didn't need to be hemmed. (Not diabetes-related, but for this 5' 3 3/4" girl, that is quite a victory. #short)
- Siah, due to her incessant padding around on the bed while we sleep, has been banished to the living room at night (read: we shut our door). Even though she spent the first few nights yowling at the door, she's now quieted down and spends her evenings plotting revenge from the couch. Sleeping more soundly is a victory.
- Also in the last three weeks, I've been back to my routine at the gym. It's another thing to carve out time for, but I know it's important and ... blah blah ... it sort of feels good okay don't tell anyone I said that run on sentence.
- When I went to get the Bird out of her crib this morning, she greeted me with a very sunny, "Oh hi, Mommy!" I love that she is happy every morning, and that she greets me as though she's surprised to see me. "Oh hey, thanks for stopping by, Mommy! Would you like some biscuits?"
- The buttons on my coffee maker, despite being caked with baking flour, still work and the coffee maker still brews up some delicious coffee yums. Not bad for a $10 Mr. Coffee from Target. (And you have also worn coffee filters as a hat at one time or another, right? Just me?)
- I remembered to order holiday cards, and I can't wait for them to arrive. This is kind of a #bigvictory because I'm so scatterbrained lately that I'm lucky I remember to put my pump on. So I'm celebrating this one in my head with a happy dance.
- I'm on the hunt for movies and music to entertain myself with on the epically long flight to Dubai next week. If you have any recommendations, I'd love to hear them. And this counts as a victory because I'm remembering to ask this now, instead of Tuesday morning from the airport in the wee hours.
- I haven't sworn yet today. At all. This is also a big victory.
- Oh shit, I said "hell" up there in the first paragraph.
- Argggggh ... see above bullet point.
- Please negate the bullet point that's three up from this one.
- And I'm feeling much, much better after yesterday. You guys really know how to make a girl feel empowered, and less like crap. So thank you very, very much for being a part of what is making me feel victorious today.
(Blog post title nod to Ms. Amanda Dolan - she knows why, and she also knows the tune. #smallvictories)