Back To School.
Most of the Rhode Island schools are back in session today (a few days later than usual, thanks to the power of Ms. Irene), and I'm missing that "back to school" feeling. School shopping with my mother, back when i was in grade school, was awesome because I'd always get notebooks, pens, and a new Trapper Keeper. I loved the way the new notebooks smelled, and how a new pen would write, and damn if that Trapper Keeper Velcro wasn't the best in that first week of school.
New school supplies made me feel organized. I liked that "clean slate" feeling, like I was given the right to let go of the past and start fresh.
I kind of need that again.
I'm not in a patch of diabetes burnout, so much as I'm in a patch of Mega Rut. In this Mega Rut, I have picked up some very bad habits and they are proving to be difficult to shake. Like ...
Not sleeping. I love to sleep. I love that feeling of laying down at night and tucking myself in underneath the down comforter. I love a cold room, a cold pillow, and a warm husband. I love not looking like I was dragged through town by a pony. So why am I not sleeping? Could it be the early mornings with the Bird, then the lack of work done throughout the day due to Bird-Watching, and then the late nights where I try to catch up on work? The baggage under my eyes would cost me a lot if I had to check it for travel.
Not eating. This sounds like a good weight loss method, in theory, but in practice, it's doing nothing but slowing my metabolism down. On the average morning, it's almost noon before I've eaten something, despite having woken up with the baby around 7 am. This makes me hungry, sluggish, and grumpy way too regularly (but it has proven to me that my morning basals are finally accurate and I can roll around with an in-range, flatlined CGM for several hours). It also makes my morning
potcup of coffee send me to CrazyTown, where I'm so drunk on coffee that the laundry folds itself when I stare at it hard enough.
Being unorganized. I seriously need that Trapper Keeper, because my to do list is long, scattered, and very hard to keep track of. If it weren't for my desk calendar, reminder alarms set on my cell phone, and Abby, my mind would be a flooded. As it stands now, my mind is hovering around the "class 2 rapids" status, but this fall is proving to be a very busy one, so I need to get my post-its in order.
Having a love/hate relationship with my inbox. I love email. I read every single one, and in my mind, I write these long, detailed responses with photos attached and iTunes recommendations. Instead, I read the email and then draft up the response in my head while I take a conference call or empty the dishwasher. And then I never send that lovely response, instead opting for one that's a few sentences and usually starts and ends with "I'm sorry I'm so late in responding!"
Paying attention to Dex. I am wearing the Dexcom 24/7 (and have been for over two years now), but I've been a little lazy with it, of late. In the last two weeks, I've left the house twice without the receiver, and I didn't notice for another hour after I returned home. (That means I wasn't checking it, which isn't a good trend for me. The closer I keep tabs on that Dex graph, the better my blood sugars run.) What's the point of wearing the sensor if I don't make use of the data?
So there are my current bad habits, but now what? I need a bad habit bootcamp. Or that there Trapper Keeper. Either way, recognizing these issues is the first step. Now that they're sitting here, in a list in front of my face, I need to do something about them.
School starts today for most of the state, and I'm taking a cue from their clean-slatedness. Starting over is easy when you leave the baggage behind (or at least the baggage that's not residing under my eyes). These are changes that need to be made and can be made easily, if I put my scattered mind to it. ;)