A Little Bit Naked.
For the last five months or so, I've been wearing the Dexcom with frightening regularity. Having it on the bedside table or on the headboard became commonplace, and the receiver laying on my desk at work was as normal as my Blackberry sitting there.
The Dexcom Seven Plus upgrade bit made a difference for me, too. It updates in accordance with my calibrations wicked fast now, instead of taking anywhere from 15 - 30 minutes to synch back up. The trending arrows are awesome and very helpful for me, because my blood sugar skyrockets and tumbles fast at times. I know when I heard about the new system I was a little "Ooooookay," because it didn't LOOK any different. The sensors are the same, the transmitter is essentially the same (gray instead of black), and the receiver is the same.
Only it's not.
The size and shape of the device and it's components hasn't changed, but whatever they tweaked on the inside there really made a huge difference. Since switching to the Seven Plus back in March, I've seen big changes in how this system performs. It was accurate enough before, but now it's scary accurate. To the point where I've eaten based on double-down arrows, and I've conservatively corrected the highs. (Note to readers: CGMs aren't supposed to replace blood tests, so this is definitely a "do as I say, not as I do" moment. Test before you treat any number.)
So anyway, I'm all nice-nice with the Dexcom these days. But just like with the pump, my skin gets a little irritated from overuse. Shuffling around pump infusion sets and Dexcom sensors for weeks on end, coupled with my abdomen avoidance techniques, left my hips and thighs a little tender. I needed a few days to let my sites heal. So I went home to RI last weekend without my Dex.
And I felt a little bit naked.
I didn't miss the sensor being on me, but I felt weird not having access to that information. I took my mother out to breakfast for her birthday on Saturday morning and I felt the need to test three times over the course of a three hour breakfast because I "needed to know" how I was trending. Same thing at dinner that night. I've grown accustomed to the graphs and charts and instant blood sugar information, and being without it made me feel exposed. My numbers were roaming around unsupervised, or at least not with the supervision I was used to.
I went to calibrate it before bed and didn't realize it was MIA until Chris said sleepily, "It's at home." I spazzed out when I couldn't find the receiver in my purse. And when we were driving on 95 on the way back, I checked the center console (where it lives when I drive) and actually felt sad that it wasn't there. I missed it - is this possible? To miss a device?
I wondered how long it would take for this to happen. I felt the same way about my pump when I took it off two summers ago for a white water rafting trip. I was used to the pump, so to be without it was odd. And now, I'm finally used to the Dexcom, so taking a break for a few days threw me off my game. Even though I am not always comfortable wearing the physical hardware, I'm more comfortable managing all this diabetes crap when I'm wearing the devices. More information, at least for me at this stage in the game, is better.
The Dexcom is back on. I haven't decided fully if it will travel on our cruise with us, but at least for now I'm fully dressed.