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Punctuate'd!

Now, off to find out Which Flavor of Jelly Bean I happen to be.While I was checking out the Twitter feed last night, I noticed that someone had posted one of those blog quizzes:  What Punctuation Mark Are You?

Normally, I scoff at these quizzes (and then scurry off to find out Which Backstreet Boy is My Soulmate or What Kind of Ballpoint Pen Am I).  But the concept of this one intrigued me, as a writer and editor.   So I took the stupid quiz and it turns out I am a comma:

"You are open minded and extremely optimistic.  You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything.  You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests.  You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time.

Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to.
(But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.)

You excel in: Inspiring people
You get along best with: The Question Mark"

And this is all well and good and fortune cookie-esque, but it made my health writer mind vault right into "What Kind of Diabetes Punctuation Mark Are You?" 

Some days, I'm a question mark, constantly wondering.  "What caused this high?"  "How do I figure out this basal rate?"  "What kind of foods can I eat today?"  "Am I a bad person because I ate that?"  "What the hell is that thing BEEEEEEP!ing for again?"  "Where is my meter?"  "Is that because I'm low or because I'm me?" 

Other days, I'm an exclamation point, frustrated and a bit burnt out.  "I am mad!"  "I don't want to deal with this stupid disease anymore!"  "I want to go to sleep without all these devices!"  "This isn't fair!"  "I quit!"  And also, "Yes, I can eat that!"

Moments where I can't separate myself from my disease become saturated with hyphens.  It's all "diabetes-related" and "high-high" and "blood sugar-wise."  A doctor-patient relationship.  Am I Kerri-with-diabetes or Just-Kerri?

There are days when I am a comma, taking a brief pause before making a decision.  "I just treated the low but I still feel low, so I should wait before eating something else."  And on particularly confusing days, I can be a semi-colon, taking an even longer moment to make sense of something.  "I'm low and I've treated it; however, I exercised, ate something sugary, have active insulin, still feel the low, and have no idea what to do next."

But overall, my diabetes is punctuated by an ellipse.  I manage the moments, but it's always a question of the unknown.  Yes, this is the "now," but what happens later?

If I eat this, I could ...
If I go to sleep on this blood sugar, I might ...
If I spend the next five years ignoring this, I may ...
If I don't do this, I will ...
If I'm happy and healthy, my life will be ...

Every day is different, and every diabetic is different.  And every moment is left with an ellipse, trailing off into the unknown.  it can be very easy some days, and completely overwhelming on others.  Sometimes I tire of taking the editorial red pen to my diabetes.  And other times, I need to remind myself that this isn't something I can ignore. 

I think that the most important thing I can do is ... live.

Comments

You Are An Exclamation Point
You are a bundle of... well, something.
You're often a bundle of joy, passion, or drama.

You're loud, brash, and outgoing. If you think it, you say it.
Definitely not the quiet type, you really don't keep a lot to yourself.

You're lively and inspiring. People love to be around your energy.
(But they do secretly worry that you'll spill their secrets without even realizing it.)

You excel in: Public speaking

You get along best with: the Dash

YEP! that's me!

Today is the first day I cried over this damn diabetes. And today I found your blog. I am also a comma. I will read on......

I'm a comma too. *shrugs*

Congrats on winning the Best Patient's Blog of 2008, Kerri.

I think all of us have those what if and maybe days and waiting for the next big whammy to hit us . I think alot of us live on pins and needles (no pun intended for us type 1s) I think you are so right with your blog . Thanks again for giving us a good one . Have a great day dear .

I'm a comma too, but the last question stumped me because I didn't feel like I qualified for any. I'm definitely liberal, but I don't think anyone would call me an optimist. So I went back and switched from that one to 'flexibility and eagerness to learn', and it still made me a comma, but I don't think the description fits me so well. I think they didn't include whatever punctuation I am in their quiz. I'm probably a tilde or a backslash or something, and now I'll never know.

I'm a colon, which apparently means that I'm orderly and fact driven. I guess that applies to my approach to diabetes too, except for the bit where it says I'm not subject to whim or emotion... As far as diabetes is concerned, that certainly isn't true! I'm with you on the ellipse.

It says I'm a comma too, but that really doesn't sound like me. Hmmm. Loved your diabetes spin on the quiz!

I haven't taken the quiz, because I'm sure it would change with each passing mood, but your take on it was very touching and elegant. It really hit home for me, but then again, that's how most of your posts affect me.

Agreed - the diabetes spin was top notch!

Hey Kerri, I hope you read these regularly, because I am trying to reach you but the "contact me" link is not working for me. In any case, I am writing an article for the Dogs4Diabetics newsletter and I would love to refer people to your blog. Please let me know if this is something I can do :)
Best wishes.
B
(www.dogs4diabetics.com if you want to read a bit about our organization before letting me know if I can refer people).

I'm a coma to. Love your blog!

I'm a question mark. Kerri your post was great! You pretty much hit the nail on the head and described what I feel on a daily basis!! Great job ;)

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