The Year of the Log.
"Use a different pen, Mom," I'd encourage her. "That way it will look like we did this on different days."
"Kerri, grab that coffee cup and smudge a bit riiiiiiight ... here."
My logbooks looked like treasure maps from centuries past, complete with fire-singed edges and wrinkled, tea-stained corners. And my then-endocrinologist at Joslin was no idiot.
"Your log book is very ... weathered," she'd say with a smirk. "Has it seen far-away and exotic countries?"
I've been diabetic for over 22 years, and keeping track of my numbers has been a challenge for me and my management team since Day 1. I need to turn this trend around and actually keep track of these numbers because they mean so much on their own, but they mean so much more when they're viewed as a big picture. Logging is the one big resolution I have for 2009, and I said I was going to try. So I'm trying.
I needed to get myself all incentivized to log my blood sugars. Logging, as I've mention a million times before, is THE hardest thing for me to reign in. I test regularly, eat well, and exercise, but I have a mental block about logging numbers. One that I need to get over.
So I did a very grown-up thing.
I bought stickers.
This is going to be my Log Book, and my last week's blood sugars are printed out, three-hole punched, and all nice-nice in there. I had the chance to look at my glucose average (173 mg/dl, thanks to a 404 mg/dl after a pump site change), my glucose numbers within target (62%) and the number of hypos I've had (5). Rough week. I'm determined to look at better results next week and say, "Ah, there it is- I've hit my stride." Or at least, "Hey, there weren't any numbers over 240 mg/dl and you only had one low."
I'm hoping I can stick with printing out my blood sugars every week, and if I can stick with the program, I will slap a star on my calendar. Stupid? Maybe, but it's tangible proof that I DID IT. And hopefully by DOING IT, I can hold myself accountable for my management and make some improvements. I won't know unless I TRY. In all caps. That's how I roll.
So, armed with stickers and silly puns, I'm making 2009 "The Year of the Log." And I think that I'm telling you guys in efforts to make me stick with it. Knowing that YOU know makes ME feel like following through isn't so tough. IN ALL CAPS. ;)