What a freaking long week, with a doctor's appointment every day and way too much medical analysis. This week is a very personal Friday Six, and here it is:
1. On Monday, I had my A1C drawn. I've been to this specific lab before, and the same woman has drawn my blood before, so I didn't have a lot of anticipatory nerves. But when the lab technician said, "Okay, you have lost all of your color - put your head down, Mrs. Sparling," I knew I wasn't as badass as I wished to be. (And I also winced when I pulled off the cotton ball she had taped to my inner arm ... I'm such a wuss.) But thankfully, the results were a full point lower than my last A1c, leaving me with a 7.5% and a reachable goal of <7% for April.
2. And Tuesday, I had a dentist appointment. Those of you who have been reading SUM for a few years know that I have an unholy fear of the dentist, but it is warranted. My teeth are so sensitive and require barrels of novocain to make them numb, so fearing the wielder of pointy metal hooks in my mouth is a rational fear. However, my new dentist is FANTASTIC and brings me no pain. I had my teeth cleaned (first time in ... ages, unfortunately), no cavities, and I have already scheduled another cleaning for April. I'm considering the dentist hurdle cleared for the time being.
3. Wednesday has me sitting at the dermatologist's office to have a new freckle on my breast examined. (Whoa, Kerri. TMI?) Yes, that is way too much information, but since when did I start censoring myself? (Since ... today? Maybe I should start.) Always in a constant state of medical over analysis, I decided it was best to have it checked out. So I spent Wednesday morning having a kind, eccentric, little bald doctor look at my breast with a magnifying glass. Definitely a "first." This little issue ended up being nothing to worry about, but now I can check "awkward sharing moment with the Internet" off my list for the week.
4. Thursday had me with dilated pupils at the retinologist's office. Of all the appointments this week, this eye one was the least ... awesome.
"Look up ... okay, now look a little to the left ... Kerri, up again ..." Dr. Retina kept shining the light in my left eye and making a "hmmmm" sound under his breath. My face was cupped by the eye examination machine.
"You can't fool me. I know you found something. Spit it out." My eye doctor and I have a very good relationship, and we talk like we're about to go grab a beer together.
"Small little something. Hemorrhages in there that I want to keep an eye on."
"Pun intended?" Without moving my face from the chin rest, I reached over and grabbed a Kleenex because I immediately started to cry. But I was oddly okay with the news. Maybe I've already had that bubble busted.
"It's okay. But with you and your husband talking about maybe getting pregnant in the coming year, I want to keep close tabs on your eyes. You've had diabetes for what, a million years?"
"Twenty-two years." I smiled.
"Twenty-two years. And your eyes look beautiful - barely a problem at all. But I want to keep them that way. Let's schedule an appointment to do a fluorescein dye exam before you and Chris are pregnant, just so we know exactly what we're dealing with."
"What is that?"
"We'll inject a dye into your arm, then do a dilation on your eyes. The dye lets me really see what's going on in there with complete precision. And with you, I do not want to take any chances."
"Okay. So do I need to worry about this? I'm worried. You know I worry."
"You worry? You do?" The gentle ribbing was okay with me. Soothed my anxiety a bit. "You do what you're doing. Work to keep your blood sugars controlled. And think about taking some time off from all that work you do. Maybe take a vacation?"
Fine. So now I need to schedule a vacation. Doctor's orders, you see. ;)
5. Now that these appointments are all behind me, I'm moving forward towards the next steps. I am doing the pre-pregnancy clinic at Joslin in March, and Chris and I are working to get everything in order so that we can make our family-starting decisions based on factors other than diabetes ones. It's an exciting time, and one I've been looking forward to my whole life.
6. And in my only news-related bit of the day, this weekend is the end of the MedGadget awards, and thanks to all of your help and support, SUM is in the lead for Best Patient Blog. I would be honored to win this award on behalf of every last one of us, so please keep spreading the word and voting! :) Thanks for everything, and hopefully on Sunday I can report that WE DID IT!
I'm planning to spend the weekend hanging with my girl friends (finally seeing the Batman after a long absence!) and doing some recreational writing. I hope you guys have a great weekend, and stay WARM!!