Owning It.
Diabetes is more than than results on my meter,
Or keeping my blood from becoming much sweeter.
It's more than the insulin, more than the food,
So much of my management stems from my mood.
I'm usually chipper, I'm real quick to smile,
But sometimes, when my sugars are running all wild,
I find myself feeling like Ms. Crumbs Morrone,
And I just want to leave this disease all alone.
Mananging numbers that just won't behave!
Feeling I'm spending far more than I've saved.
The more that I focused, the worse it became
Until I realized it is me that's to blame.
Overthinking this stuff makes my head implode
My emotions go into toxic overload.
So while I'm maintaining a top-notch Kerri,
I need to remember my health, mentally.
So this morning, I woke with a cat on my head,
I kissed my fiance and rose from the bed.
I took a long shower, wiped steam from the mirror,
And suddenly everything seemed a bit clearer.
It is a disease, just a small part of me.
I'm more than my numbers and my A1c.
I don't need to give up my life for these reins.
It doesn't define, it just helps explain.
I shook off the mood that has eaten my week,
I left behind panic and embraced the "tweak."
I'll handle these numbers with grace and with rhyme,
And make myself healthy, one day at a time.
SUM Tags: poetry, diabetes, determination, owning it
Comments
I really admire your spirit, Kerri! That poem brought a smile to my face!
Posted by: Lea | January 16, 2008 03:12 PM
Good for you! It's hard when the line between defining and explaining you starts to blur.
Loved the poem!
Posted by: Jillian | January 16, 2008 03:29 PM
Bravo! Well put Kerri
Posted by: Scott M | January 16, 2008 04:14 PM
very clever miss kerri!
Posted by: landileigh | January 16, 2008 04:43 PM
wow...that was amazing. very well written kerri! ur a pro..obviously :)
Posted by: Jenna | January 16, 2008 06:20 PM
Kerri, each time I visit your site, I love how you seem to explain things right.
thanks a bunch for making me laugh constantly, not to mention my introduction Chai Tea.
:)
Posted by: George | January 16, 2008 06:30 PM
Days like this are good for diabetics. To remember that outside of a "condition" (I prefer this over "disease")for which you have full control over, you are a capable, happy, healthy, regular 'ol human being! This is a way of life. Hell, you're likely healthier than more non-diabetics you know.
For all of us - don't overthink or submerse yourself into diabetes tunnel vision. We have so many freedoms afforded to us that weren't available when I was diagnosed in 1976. Do what you love and all will fall into place.
That said, I will disconnect for a copule of hours tomorrow and enjoy some time with my beloved surfboard!
It's all good.
Posted by: Glen | January 16, 2008 07:35 PM
Hehe... hi Kerri! Feel free to add me to the roll, and check out the full eyebrow story back on my blog (just posted it, especially for you!). Thanks for the warm welcome!
Posted by: Carly | January 16, 2008 10:50 PM
VERY nice poem!
I'm actually rapping it in my head while I read it and flows quite well...
Maybe I'll record it, make a hip hop beat behind it and send it to you for kicks.
Unless you'll be incredibly offended by that. Then forget I ever suggested it.
But if not, let's talk. haha.
Posted by: Albert | January 17, 2008 12:11 PM
Awesome poem, Kerri. It gave me a lift today!
Posted by: Briana | January 17, 2008 02:04 PM
Great stuff.
Posted by: Scott K. Johnson | January 18, 2008 02:37 PM